Saturday, February 17, 2007
waRgh!!
Wow…prom na mamaya…
Whatever…
Bwisit…
Bahala xa…
I’ll have fun on my own…
Arghhh!!
I so hate him right now! I can’t even have a decent pre prom post because of him!!!
Waaarrrgghhh!!
Labels: disappointments, frustrations
bEEN aLoNE siNcE2/17/2007 12:16:00 PM
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
tapos Na uN, waLa Ng magagawa
hai..
what do they want me to do...
iwan sa ere ung mga taong nagsakripisyo para sakin nun?
iwan ung mga taong nagmalasakit lang naman sakin?
iwan sila na andun nung iniwan niyo ako?
grabe, gustuhin ko man na makasama kayo, di na pwede...
kasi may mga naapektuhan na ng dahil dito...
naiinis na ako...
grrr!!
pero ayokong mainis...
promise...
di un enough reason para magkagulo-gulo ulit kami...
ayoko na ng gulo eh...
kaya akin nalang toh...
ayoko na talagang magsalita para tapos na at di ko na maalala....
lecheng table kasi yan.bwisit.Labels: disappointments, frustrations
bEEN aLoNE siNcE2/04/2007 05:32:00 PM
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
.waLa akoNg titLE.haha.
i can't think of any title. honestly, i don't even know what to talk about in this entry. hehe.xp
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i'm bored. i wanna change my skin. i'm getting really bored with my current one already. hehe.
i'm thinking of using one of my previous skin, maybe i'll use the first skin i ever used..hmmm..tama tama. haha!!
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i'm excited. i hope matuloy xa. hehe. wala lang. hehe. sana di na toh kumalat. haha!!
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i'm confused. is there really something wrong between the two of us?? cause i feel like his uneasy when i'm around him. haai, i hope he gets over with it already, cause it's kind of offending at times.
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i'm doubtful. i think i shouldn't trust my reasoning about them anymore, cause it's getting really complicated and WEIRD. R-E-A-L-L-Y. it has all kinds of inconsistencies. grr!!
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i'm frustrated. i have lots of things to do and a whole other list of the things i WANNA do. waaaahh!! help me finish it all!! waaaahh!!
and with that..bye-bye!
haha!!
Labels: random thoughts
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/31/2007 07:17:00 PM
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Monday, January 29, 2007
pag-ibig paRiN kaya?
haha!! let me "borrow" princess hours' theme song for a while.
haai, i can't understand my feelings. un parin kaya? xa parin kaya? but why don't i feel the sparks anymore? the feeling and "kilig" that i used to feel, they're barely there anymore. last weekend, he barely entered my thoughts, and when he did, it was only because i was wondering why i don't think of him anymore. (haha! i know, that's weird..xp) and most of all, i was thinking of someone else, thinking of the near future and the FUTURE, if you know what i mean. (haha! good luck in analyzing that very vague phrase. hehe..) so does that mean that i have moved on...to another?? oh no!!!! if ever that's the case...waaaaaahhhh!! i think that a more difficult situation..!! haha! (maybe another entry will be dedicated to that delicate topic xp)
and take this, i forgot our ANNIVERSARY!! sure sure, technically, we don't have that anymore. but you have to understand, that has never happened to me before!! to forget anything about him, ABOUT US! that used to be absurd!! and in addition to that, i don't really feel bad about forgetting it (i know i'm not required to, but i'm sure you know what i mean). before, if ever such incidents happen (which were rare, mind you..) i would really feel bad and at times CRY!! so why the hell didn't i feel bad????!!???!! does this mean...??? is it really..??? my!!! complications!! is this for real now?!?
but what if i'm just leading myself on AGAIN? this isn't the first time (neither the second nor the third) that i said to myself that i'm over him already. but after a while, i will suddenly realize that i was wrong (and usually in very bad situations xc)
goshhhhhh........!!!!!!!! help me.......!!!!! anyone................................i really need to be enlightened about these things...xc
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when i decided that i wanna go home already, we accidentally met at the back lob, then we agreed that we're gonna walk together up until quezon ave, then he asked me where i will go from there, then i actually changed my route to still be with him (for whatever reason..). while getting in the jeep, he asked if i can accompany him to up dil instead, and yes, i agreed..there's nothing wrong with that right?? (right??) then, we arrived, inquired, then was about to go out the shopping center when we met kuya ed and her girlfriend..haha!! weird moment!! waaahh!! haha!! anyways, we passed by philcoa and joked that we should eat there first, but he actually asked seriously if i wanted to..but i think it was a mutual decision not to for we both needed to get home already. then came quezon ave..we got off the jeep and finally separated...
it was a whole hour of happiness, of pure bliss, of contentment...no sparks, no feelings, no "kilig"...but the event was special and really something that i will hold on to...though he might not feel the same way (for really, i don't know what i'm really feeling myself!), i do know that it meant something for the two of us...
is this a true story...or just a piece of my imagination and fantasies realized by my own mind? whichever it may be, the course of our jeepney ride will forever be close to my heart...
so in the end, the question still remains, is it still love or just a thing of the past?
Labels: confusions, love
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/29/2007 07:34:00 PM
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
mixEd EmotioNs..xp
Because I'm quite pissed right now, I'll keep this post short.......
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January 16 – happiness...though it wasn't how I really wanted it to be, I'm still glad it happened. (hint: how can I refuse?xp haha!!)
– apprehensive...haaay, pasalamat kayo at nangyari un, kasi dahil sa sobrang tuwa ko nun kaya ko nagawa un..haha!! anyway, masaya rin naman ako sa result nung move na un. I'm proud of myself kasi naging ready na ako for that..haha!!
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January 17 – delighted!! yey!! Tapos na namin ung str poster naming!! Proud ako sa sarili ko kasi nakaya ko un...proud ako sa group ko kasi nagawa naming toh!! Haha!!
– ??? What's happening ???
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January 18 – relieved...weeeee!! Finally dumating na rin ung tamang moment...though I still have my fears...sana di na masayang ung third chance na toh...
– ??!! hmmm...sige lang...
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January 19 – curious...ganun ba talaga kaganda ung shirt???? Haha!!
– ?!!! waaahhh!!! Bakit ganun???
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January 20 – awed...wow, ang galing nilang sumayaw. I attended this dance concert thing of upm and they were really good. Ang galing din ng ate ko..haha!!
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January 21 – haaay..bakit sila ganun..super halata kung gano nila ako gustong makasama sa prom (even last year)...oh well, bahala na, ganun naman talaga sila dati pa eh..ano pa bang nagbago. Di mo naman talaga mafifeel na special ka..in fact I don't think na ganun naman ung tingin nila sakin eh..kaya never din akong naniwala dun sa pantay pantay ung tingin thing eh..kasi halata naman ung preference nila..oh well...who cares, nandun na eh..wala ng magagawa...ayoko na ring ipagpilitan sarili ko sa kanila (ilang beses ko na ba tong nasabi??)...enough na na ayos na lahat. I've done my part. I shouldn't care what happens next. Argh!!! It just frustrates me so much na parang wala talaga silang pakialam...bahala na sila. Ayoko na talaga...basta friend nalang ako..ayoko na ung "barkada"...cause one thing's for sure, they never made me feel that I belong...really...
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/21/2007 02:19:00 PM
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
wEhEhE...xp
11 o'clock...
astb...
mamaya...
comp sci ngayon...
wahaha...
sana maalala ko...
hehe...xp
****darating kaya xa??********
**********darating kaya ako?????**************
wahahahahaha!!!!xp xp xpLabels: confusions
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/18/2007 08:37:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
weeee...happiNEss...xp
masaya ako today...
weeeee!!
sana masaya rin siya...
memorable day...
sana ung araw na un din maging memorable..xp
hehe...Labels: expectations, happiness
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/16/2007 08:00:00 PM
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somEday...
Someday by Nina
Someday you're gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I cared
I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long
'Coz Someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday someday
Right now I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doing well
But one day these tears they will all run dry
I won't have to cry, sweet goodbye
'Coz someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
oohh.. One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
someday, i know someone's gonna be there
Someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday someday..
oh yeah...
haaay...sa wakas nakapagpost narin ako...ang tagal ko na 'tong gustong ipost, kaso di ko ma-load ung blog ko...ewan ko kung bakit...
haaaay, super perfect nung song. super totoo. super appropriate. yes, someday i'll find another, and all this pain and sufferings will (hopefully) go away. but until then, i hope i'll be okay...
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haaaay, i just realized (after a few minutes of pagmumuni muni) that all of my problems , lahat ng gulong pinasok ko, isa lang naman ung root nito eh..SIYA...sobrang kabaliwan ko sa kanya. sobrang pagpatay ko sa sarili ko para sa kanya. and my biggest problem is because of THEM.
haay,,totoo talaga ung sinasabi ko lagi..na malaki talaga siyang bahagi ng buhay ko. malaki talaga ung effect niya sakin. and i hate that.
i'm losing everything everyone important to me. and gago ako kung sasabihin kong di ako apektado. pero still gago ako kasi pinapabayaan kong mangyari toh.
affected ako. SOBRA. pero ganun talaga eh. ito na yata tadhana ko.
but i have made a decision, and i think may point naman ako dito. ayaw ko sana munang makipag good terms sa kanila hanggat di pa xa nawawala sa isip ko. kasi wala rin namang kwenta kung magbabati bati kami ngayon, cause sooner or later, magagalit sila ulit sakin, kasi may nasabi na naman akong kinainis nila. magiging cycle lang....di ko naman gustong saktan sila ng paulit ulit....
pero pano un?..pano kung matagal pa un??..haaayy!! bahala na..
basta! maaayos ko rin buhay ko...someday...........
Labels: expectations
bEEN aLoNE siNcE1/16/2007 07:27:00 PM
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