I don't know why, but it seems like whenever I'm down, I still think of you. I still grab unto my phone and start writing down words of complains to you like I used to do, feeling that you will reply with words of encouragement like you too used to do. But in a few moments, I will start to realize that it's different now, things have changed and I can no longer do those things expecting that you will be there for me just like before. I really don't know why up to now, I still do this. I still think of you as my savior and my shoulder to cry on, someone who will lift me up and never stop trying until he makes me smile.

I've said before that I'm going to get over you, and I know for a fact that I am doing just that, but what I did yesterday evening surprised me. I almost texted you about my problems, fortunately, I became aware of what I was about to do just in time. And then, I started to think about those other times that I wasn't able to prevent myself from running to you for comfort. Though you weren't exactly comforting, you were still there. Haaay, I don't know why I still think of you as someone who cares and is there for me, even tough I have went through a lot of pain because of you. I can't bring myself to think of you as someone who's heartless and pitiless (wow, is that too harsh?? haha..). Is it right for me to still see you as that?

Haaay, I'm really confused and I need someone to lean on to. Who will save me from this loneliness I feel inside? When will you come? Please hurry, cause I can't this any longer.

Cox Internet